Lately, I
have been thinking about a quote from Morihei Ueshiba, the founder of Aikido.
He once
said, "masakatsu
agatsu or "true victory is victory over oneself."
Like many of his quotes, this can be interpreted in many ways. I often find my self thinking about this quote in my own training.
During my aikido practice I often thought of the quote to mean if I had control of myself emotionally and had a calm approach to an assailant, then I could control the situation. In other words, if I had self-control then I could control others. This is of course true in a verbal confrontation, in fact I use this idea everyday in my job. I'm a high school teacher in a state-funded school and staying calm with teenagers is very important. Teenagers will often resort to verbal abuse like put-downs and swearing to disrupt your influence. Being able to use body language, precise wording and a calm demeanor is important.
I find
one flaw in my own logic here. Even if I could be calm under a physical assault I would
still have to be technically proficient to survive such a
confrontation. Just because I could be calm under pressure does
not guarantee success.
When I
began practicing Takamura-ha Shindo Yoshin Ryu an important aspect of
the training focused on correct alignment of my body,
'structure' is the term we use often. The more I train, the more I realise that
without proper structure I cannot possibly control others. If my structure is
not correct, then it becomes more difficult for me to take control of my
opponent. So on a simple, physical level masakatsu agatsu applies.
While in the draft stages of this post I came upon this blog:
In this blog the author talks about how anyone who studies
martial arts, studies violence. There is no other way to look at it. We can
wrap it up in soft fluffy philosophy but at the end of the day, the definition
of martial arts is forms of self-defence or attack. We learn how to use
physical violence to get an end result. So the author then goes on to say,
"How does this make us any different to bad guys?"
It is an interesting point. People who rob, rape, assault or
kill use violence or at least the threat of violence. How do we differ? The
author's point? We use violence to protect while the bad guys use violence to
prey on others. He then goes on to say that in order to protect we must
be better at violence than the bad guys. What a thought.
A quote from the blog:
"So it is imperative that GOOD people be skilled at
violence.
What does that mean?For the most part it is helping good
people give themselves permission to do what is necessary.
Unless they are competing for the same resources, it is rare for a predator to hunt another predator.
So protection can also be achieved by helping folks remember that they are also predators. The confidence that brings can remove someone from some victim profiles."
Unless they are competing for the same resources, it is rare for a predator to hunt another predator.
So protection can also be achieved by helping folks remember that they are also predators. The confidence that brings can remove someone from some victim profiles."
The
author continues to say that should you allow yourself permission to do what is
necessary and be violent, then how much is too much? When do you turn the
violence off? How do you turn the violence off? Masakatsu
agatsu. True victory is
victory over oneself. This mental level is something I have been chasing all of
my martial arts journey. As I have trained I have pushed myself out of my
comfort zone, then once that was comfortable I looked for more discomfort. The
problem I had was if the people around me didn't want to amp things up like
that I was left with no one to train with. When I started aikido, taking a
physical risk might mean taking a high break fall or letting someone twist on
my arm. As that fear disappeared, I wanted faster attacks and to dance more on
the edge of what I was capable of. Unfortunately for most of my training
partners, they weren't interested after a certain level of stress.
Then I
started TSYR. Here my training colleagues were more capable and used to higher
levels of stress in the dojo. The training involved committed attacks often
with wooden training weapons. I know at even higher levels of training, shinai
and armour are used and permission is given to move away from kata and really
try to make the hits land. Sensei has a systematic approach to amping up
training and getting the adrenal dump to occur in the participants. I am not at
this point and Threadgill Sensei has said that not everyone wants to go there.
I want to go there.
One of my
TSYR buddies is an Air Force Medic. He had the opportunity to train with the
Australian Special Forces at one point. Members of the Armed Forces were asked
if they would play the part of terrorists on a Special Forces exercise. My
friend put his hand up. One thing he noted when he meet these men is the
absolute confidence they had in their abilities. It was a quiet confidence, no
bravado what-so-ever. The exercise simulated a takeover of a bus. The Special
Forces guys were to storm the bus and take down the 'terrorists'. My fiend said
he had never experienced anything like it. The Special Forces guys went from
quiet, confident men to aggressive, violent soldiers in a second. They moved
with absolute precision, with calculated violence. My friend found himself
taken to the ground with a knee on is chest in seconds. He said there was
nothing gentle about how they dealt with the situation. He said these men
carried a presence that none of the other soldiers carried. One of utmost
confidence in their abilities in moments of high stress. They had gained
victory over themselves. Masakatsu
agatsu.
I have
read many articles by Ellis Amdur. He wrote this one:
How can
I, a civilian studying martial arts ever get to the level of calm efficiency
that the Special Forces guys get to? Should it even be a goal for me? A part of
me wants to find out what I am capable of. What happens to me, psychologically
if I really feel threatened? Ellis Amdur's article addresses his own training
under stress and one of the outcomes for him. It is sobering reading.
Part of
me wants to go into this psychological space. To see where my breaking point
is. To see what demons lurk within. And then quell them.
Then, and
only then do I think I will have achieved masakatsu
agatsu.